Character Name Kirei Kotomine Character Team Anemone
Symbol of Restraint Probably something actually like rosary beads, including cross and all. If that's taken or another character asks for it, snakes; for a third option, a crucifix or the nails associated with a crucifix, or wreaths of thorns.
Fear I'd say the only one thing he's really afraid of is that there is really no hope for him, and he's been abandoned by God forever. A few bullet points:
it's more a thing that he thinks he'll never have a "place" in the world—he'll never feel like he belongs—than that he expects God to bless him or bring him glory or anything; he already knows he doesn't deserve that
he's not afraid of death or his own sociopathic impulses in the slightest
he knows he's a faulty creation/he receives happiness in ways that aren't ""okay"", but it could be said that his worst fear is remaining the same he has been his entire life—alone, not knowing any others like him, never being able to be happy to the extent he wants to be, forever thinking he's a mistake/defective in the world
he doesn't have the complete memories of her yet, but his wife is a huge part of his fear, actually! He may have truly loved her (a big, rare thing for Kirei), and she was the one person he knew who worked hardest to fix him and did love him, so in general the fact that he may have experienced love back really fucking scares him because he just let her die in front of him (why is he so messed up)
another point based on the above—thinking that he has some hidden ability to really feel normal people emotions normally... Overall, that frightens him.
things i usually associate with Kirei's fear include vast emptiness, solitude, being on the verge of mental breakdowns, dissatisfaction and spite towards God, and keeping a desire to act out and hurt others carefully buried deep within your soul; it's like you're two people
Unsettling Images/etc Yeah, this is probably gonna be his dead wife (dead wives???)... I can't honestly think of much else, because he'd be turned on or be like WOW THIS IS RAD about 99.9% of other really fucking disturbing stuff. Maybe just symbolism of marriage, being married, or wives would work—as well as other things specifically associated with Claudia, his wife. She was very sick and frail, so bandages, etc., would be fine.
Missing I don't actually think missing anything would terribly distress Kirei (if anything, he'd be happier if he lost some of what he is), so I'll go with what would be most enjoyable for me—maybe he'll lose his brain's ability/association to receive immense pleasure from suffering, meaning that even if he sees someone suffer or makes them suffer, he doesn't feel a corresponding thrill from it.
It's possible I'll have another character in the game by the time the deadline for this approaches (PROBABLY ANOTHER FATE/ OF SOME KIND), so I'll be sure to fill this out for them if I can! ALSO TY FOR DOING THIS
kirei's player/ginko!
Character Team Anemone
Symbol of Restraint Probably something actually like rosary beads, including cross and all. If that's taken or another character asks for it, snakes; for a third option, a crucifix or the nails associated with a crucifix, or wreaths of thorns.
Fear I'd say the only one thing he's really afraid of is that there is really no hope for him, and he's been abandoned by God forever. A few bullet points:
Unsettling Images/etc Yeah, this is probably gonna be his dead wife (dead wives???)... I can't honestly think of much else, because he'd be turned on or be like WOW THIS IS RAD about 99.9% of other really fucking disturbing stuff. Maybe just symbolism of marriage, being married, or wives would work—as well as other things specifically associated with Claudia, his wife. She was very sick and frail, so bandages, etc., would be fine.
Missing I don't actually think missing anything would terribly distress Kirei (if anything, he'd be happier if he lost some of what he is), so I'll go with what would be most enjoyable for me—maybe he'll lose his brain's ability/association to receive immense pleasure from suffering, meaning that even if he sees someone suffer or makes them suffer, he doesn't feel a corresponding thrill from it.
It's possible I'll have another character in the game by the time the deadline for this approaches (PROBABLY ANOTHER FATE/ OF SOME KIND), so I'll be sure to fill this out for them if I can! ALSO TY FOR DOING THIS